Dear NM - This reading is done with osho zen deck. Feel free to ask for clarification or other questions.
Past experience in love
Conditioning (beyond illusion)
Your past experience was one of being bound and trying to be someone you were not. That situation wasn't right for you and you weren't willing to change to suit the situation. You may have felt more comfortable and accepted in the past but that didn't reflect what you need out of your love life.
Current experience
Abundance - The Creator
It seems like you have already picked yourself up and put plans in place for starting something new. You are enjoying yourself by going out and participating in a lot of things as well. You seem to be surrounded by people but a lot of them are probably men and there is no real feminine energy around you at the moment.
Future
silence (transformation)
your future love life shows that you will come to terms with yourself rather than with previous experiences. You will finally be able to internalise the changes that you have come through and there will be great hope for the future. A big change will come along and there could be someone that brings up these feelings in you or you could sense yourself as ready to find a relationship that has real meaning for you. There will be a real shift of what you look for in the next person.
